Monday 30 April 2018

6 Years On

30/04/2018

Hi All

Well it's that time of year again, it seems to come around faster each time.
Today especially just take a moment and sit outside if its nice or even if its not.
Take a deep breath and look around, listen to the birds, feel the sun, wind or rain on your face.
See the flowers that are in bloom and look at the trees and clouds.
Yes the garden needs a hell of a lot of work, yes I have shop work to do and other 'small' things in the grand scheme of life. But even you should just take a minute. Switch off that phone, find a quite spot and just sit and appreciate being alive.

On this day 6yrs ago Sue Unsworth a Bradford council H.R worker, who had been single for a year after splitting with her partner she had been with for 12yrs. Who had moved away from her family and friends, who was incredibly lonely and couldn't even afford a bus pass after bills, died today.
And Suzi Unsworth a resilient, fiercely independent (my mother would say stubborn) person was born. She was able to move back to her childhood town where she was the happiest she could remember. She opened up her own business and gained lots and lots of new friends and reconnected with old.
Yes the road has been hard, but there is a saying I would give my arm and a leg for that.
Thankfully my new life only cost me my leg and to get everything I have now I would gladly pay the price again if I was asked do I want to go back and not cycle to work that day.

Remember hours become days, days become weeks, weeks become years just take them in your own time.

So as before there is the progress pics below I will give a big gap as I know some of you might be eating :).














Looks like a line of angry potatoes :)
 

Thursday 5 April 2018

Facing my fears

5/04/2018

Hi all

I swore to myself that I would never return to Bradford. I wasted 13yrs of my life there, most filled with tears, loneliness, then finally betrayal and agony.

But tomorrow I will be hosting a stall for my tea company www.monstermashteas.co.uk
at the Bradford university. I will be travelling there in a van and at some point we will be going down the same road I had my accident, Manchester Road.

As part of my hobbies the roleplay society I am a part of won the right to host the next games,
 (bit like the geek Olympics) But as we do not have a place to house hundreds of gamers Bradford offered their university.

My stomach sank when I heard this and for the first 6 months blatantly refused to go.
But I have always been stubborn, I see it as a positive trait, and sat down one day with a large whiskey and soda and thought this through.

Apart from us looking alike, if I were to go back and meet the other 'me' she wouldn't recognise me now.  Yes I walk with a limp but under the skin i am stronger, more confident and in a much happier place.

I have my very own home, decorated how I like. The bulk of my friends are only a bus/taxi away.
In the past 6yrs since the accident I have gained far more new friends and helped a lot of people who were not as fortunate as me.

I have flown in a plane, been to Disneyland. Seen a Heron and a hawk up close in my garden and hundreds of other experiences I would not have seen/felt etc if I had died that day.

When I see that stretch of tarmac, that familiar road sign, hell even the bus with the Bradford Bus route number on, tomorrow and the tearful memories start flooding back. I will just take a deep breathe and chant to myself. I am literally Titanium, I am strong, you are just ghosts of another life and you can not hurt me now........NOW BRADFORD GIVE ME YOUR MONEY!!!! :)